The rope tightens; there is no more slack. You pull as hard as you can in your direction, but something pulls in the opposite direction. You fight it, not giving in, pulling with every last bit of strength you have left. You feel the tug from the other side, but you resist. Your body weakens as you try to hold firm.
Thus is the battle of wills, the struggle between our desires and God’s desires. It is a daily struggle between our selfish motives and God’s plan for our life. You can try to ignore God’s tug on your life, but you feel him gently pulling you toward His will. When things don’t go your way you cling to your rope and pull with more effort to just maintain your position.
Deep inside, as the strength in your body wanes, you wonder what would happen if you stopped resisting? What would it be like to be pulled into the arms of God, to follow His will with complete abandonment of your desires. There is fear inside of the unknown; fear of pain and suffering. Yet to be totally immersed in God’s will — what would it feel like to surrender to God and His desire for your life; to fulfill His purpose?
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And He went a little beyond them, and fell on His face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.” – Matthew 26:39 (NASB)
He went away again a second time and prayed, saying, “My Father, if this cannot pass away unless I drink it, Your will be done.” – Matthew 26:42
And He left them again, and went away and prayed a third time, saying the same thing once more. – Matthew 26:44