I fight the words from within
Feelings that make me weep
Whispering, “You’ll never win.”
Memories I don’t want to keep
Struggling to control thought
Trauma replays in my mind
Emotions make me distraught
I seek relief I cannot find
“Lift yourself up,” others say
Yet inner strength does fail me
While trials linger on each day
From this pain I long to be free
My weary eyes gaze skyward
I pray God will lend a hand
Doing it myself is truly absurd
Trapped in this troubled land
Step by step I learn to walk
With faith in God as my guide
Being self sufficient is all talk
Since now in Christ I do abide
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.” – John 15:5
© 2019 CGThelen
When we abide, the walk becomes easier. When we trust Him, His love becomes our comfort! A lovely share!
Thanks for the comment. Blessings.
I can’t seem to find the proper words to respond to this beautiful, vulnerable post; a post I most certainly identify with. I treasure your words and the encouragement they offer.
I’ve travel the path of self-sufficiency many, many—MANY— times, but in Christ’s graciousness, I am learning to lean more on His supremacy. Easier said than done, but I cling to Phil 1:6, “…being confident of this, that He who began a good work in [us] will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
For me, it is about being intentional in my daily surrender to Him.
Ahhh—love, love this post. The fragrance of it will linger with me as I head out to work this morning.
Karyn
I am grateful you found encouragement in this post. It seems self sufficiency is a daily struggle — to let go and let Christ lead the way. Love the Phil 1:6 verse — we are a work in progress. We serve a God full of love and grace who indeed will carry us to victory! Thank you for sharing your thoughts. Blessings.
Goes well along with Ps 123.1 A Song of degrees. Unto thee lift I up mine eyes, O thou that dwellest in the heavens.
Great companion verse. Thanks for sharing.
Wonderful words and thoughts, sorry I had a puppy helping me type.
Thanks. LOL Nothing like an eager puppy trying to be helpful. Blessings.
Beautiful, relatable, and so true. God bless!
Blessings to you as well.