It is there. Stalking me in the night, waiting to assault me, telling me what I am not, what I cannot do. My past hunts me. So many events with so much grief. Tears shed. Darkness closing in. Crying out to God. Yet in those moments past, I see God present. Ever faithful. His truth reigns. Help me dear God to grasp your hope. Shield me from the discouragement that can be found in the past. Help me to focus on the hope you bring, your peace that surpasses all understanding. Give me a vision of your future. Destroy the lies that seek to divert me from your truth. You are worthy of all praise dear God. Fill me with your presence. I praise you dear God. Thank you for your love and grace.
Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. – Phillipians 3:13-14 (NASB)