Falling Into the Hands of God

For as long as I have been a Christian I have sought to have a heart after God. I have questioned God about many things in my life including many traumatic events, but I have never questioned my belief in God. But last week a fellow believer posed a question to me that I have wrestled with since then: “Do you believe God is who he says he is; do you believe his promises?” She was encouraging me to let go of all my efforts, my own ideas of serving God, and to rest in him. She described it as a funnel where I keep running around the outside trying to do things on my own. Then she asked me, “What happens if you stop running?” I looked at her and said, “I fall into the dark hole at the bottom of the funnel, the unknown.” She nodded, “Exactly.”
She pinpointed my greatest fear — the fear of the unknown. What I viewed as efforts to serve God were more driven by not wanting to fall into the unknown; of not wanting to fall completely into the hands of God. “Do you trust God to take care of the things you are trying to fix on your own?” I hesitated to answer. The revelation that I did not completely trust God brought tears to my eyes. I thought I was totally devoted to God, to following Christ Jesus, but her words revealed I was still clinging to the sides of the funnel with my own selfish motives and my works.
She went on to explain that falling into the unknown, falling into the hands of God, releases us to let his Spirit work fully within us. Our efforts become a response to God’s call, a nudging of the Spirit. A heart after God is the first step, but God calls us to a deeper relationship with him. He asks us to trust him and his ways even when they don’t make sense. “Just be still,” she advised me. “He is calling you to still waters, a place of rest.” It is a place where you can hear God’s call.
Running around the funnel on my own is tiring. Resting by still waters sounded attractive, but was it enough for me to stop running around the funnel? My fear of falling into the unknown still caused me to cling to the edge of the funnel. Even though I know God is there at the bottom with open hands to catch me, I can’t seem to let go. I feel God’s tug on my life, yet I still keep running around the funnel, too scared to fall into his hands.
This seems like a crisis of faith I am in. Will I let go of my own efforts and fall into a deeper relationship with the God of the universe who is patiently waiting for me; am I willing to die to self so I can fully live for Christ? It is not so much a question of belief, but a question of if I will give all I am to follow God even if I don’t know where he is leading me? Can I really let go of my efforts to control my life and let the hand of God guide me?
The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you. – Gen. 12:1 (NIV)
Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. – Matt. 16:24 (NIV)
Come, follow me,” Jesus said, “and I will send you out to fish for people.” At once they left their nets and followed him. – Matt. 4:19-20 (NIV)

© 2018 CGThelen

10 thoughts on “Falling Into the Hands of God

  1. His evident grace shows through your writings… There are some things in God which only the broken may speak.

    Great Blessings to you

  2. Works without faith are dead… Faith without works is dead. The true crisis of faith can only be resolved within the riddle of our own relationship with Him. He is the teacher, the shepherd and our saviour. He is for us… and in that we can have the confidence to step out of our boat into the storms of life knowing He will teach us to walk and hold us in every situation. They who never do will never know the ways of the Lord. “Trust in the Lord and do good” The faithless venture nothing and learn nothing… Jesus never rebuked His disciples for asking for too much… He reproved them for their lack of faith.

    I have the privilege of meeting with the Church in other countries and I am always humbled by the wonder of the life in which they walk… One story to pass on to you…

    Friend of mine went to a poor country to minister and as he was eating with a group of them, a potato farmer related a story of his own experience. He had just finished harvesting some of his crop and had loaded it into his truck. When he had finished loading it he thanked the Lord for the harvest and felt to ask God what he was to do with it. He then climbed into his truck and started driving down the back road to town and he felt impressed to turn down a certain road and then drove for sometime and felt to turn several more times and he ended up at an orphanage. He then got out of the truck to go inside and he was met by the staff who had been praying for several days for food as they had none. Both were blessed and God was honoured.

    When my friend heard that story he broke down and cried out to them that they should be ministering to him not the other way around!

    There is an ocean God is beckoning us to walk in, there is depths in Him beyond our limited vision to see, there are fields white unto harvest and how He calls us to greater things. We are not talking about the carnal reaping of the foolish prosperity “gospel” of our land we are talking about the infinite supply of our Christ to meet the needs of humanity all around us. Lives who are willing to be broken and spent that others may live and know of His wonder. It is in each of us stepping into the river of His life that we will find His flow out of our own. For His call and expression to each of us is unique, personal and powerful. Isaiah saw Seraphim, Ezekiel saw the Cherubim, Peter walked on water, Philip ministered to the Eunuch and Paul spoke on Mars Hill. What He is in each of us can only be solved by walking in the faith and call He has given to each of us. To one He gave two talents to another five, the issue is not in what was given, the issue is what have we done with the unmerited gift given to us. I love the mystery of His call to each of His own and without our walk of faith we will never solve the mystery. No one can teach another the way of the Lord, we must walk it out in the processing of our faith and His patience. He is trustworthy to correct us, encourage us and bring us to greater things. Confidence grows only by doing. The God who saved David’s sheep from the lion and the bear gave him the confidence to confront Goliath. We grow by doing and our heavenly Shepherd knows us better than we know ourselves. He is able to see us through.

    Anyway I appreciate your blog, your heart and transparency. Appreciate your prayers as well for we are all works in progress.


    1. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and experience. I appreciate you reading my blog and sharing your heart. I am grateful that God wants me to dig deeper — to seek his ways and the path he has laid before me. It also means I must accept the trauma I have experienced in the last few years as part of his plan to strengthen my faith. I must forgive those who have harmed me and seek to bring them the love of Jesus. It is only through God I am able to do these things and that is the point of decision — to choose not to do it on my own, but only through Christ who strengthens me. Praise God that he finds us worthy to serve him.

  3. Thank you for being transparent on an issue that is for more prevalent than most Christians want to admit, myself included! What you describe as a funnel I often equate to this: I have complete faith that what Jesus accomplished on the cross has assured me salvation. I am utterly convinced of this truth. The problems arise when I do not carry that certainty into my every day life with the events that present themselves. I tend to worry instead of pray, which causes me to jump to the worst-case scenario of conclusion.
    This struggle for me is defined in Hebrews 11:1: Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see (NIV). I’m sure of what I hope for (salvation), but am often far less certain of the things I can’t see in the world around me.
    Blessedly, God has abundant grace to help those like me, inviting me always into a deeper relationship with Him. As I take Him up on this invitation, I find more faith to replace some of my doubts and concerns.

    Blessings to you,

  4. I struggle similarly. I think most of us do. I read the story of the “Rich Young Man” and wonder how I’d react …

    Looking at him, Jesus felt a love for him and said to him, “One thing you lack: go and sell all you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.” But at these words he was saddened, and he went away grieving, for he was one who owned much property. (Mark 10:21-22)

    Maybe not a crisis, but a decision to make for sure. Peace to you.

    1. Thanks for the insight. I wonder the same thing about the rich young ruler — how I would react. In my heart I know the answer, that I must let go, but living it out is the challenge. I am grateful that we serve a loving God who patiently continues to draw us near.

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